Monday, 28 October 2013
Wednesday, 19 June 2013
Wednesday, 12 June 2013
You know the more I dance the more I have a deeper appreciation of music past and present, just this week, I've found a great album and re-discovered a old favourite singer of mine her music is just so tango well some of it. Not all music is suitable for a sensual dance like Tango, but just every now and the pen someone plays a track you remember from the past and.... Wham! That be great to tango to! Over the past couple of weeks I've been using an app called Tune-in radio at first it was just to listen to one of my live UFO shows and I started to tinker with the various radio stations and found a few tango stations in actual Argentina and Germany! Yeah Germany it's big there and my teacher is German so it makes seance. The first bolt out of the great and hard as nails Grace Jones's classic Walking in the Rain and I've seen that face before, so powerful is the image it leaves I can dance it all in my head, some of the other tracks of note pull up to the bumper and La Vie En Rose a wee bit long but worth an arch or two. One group I've heard of but never listened too is Massive Attack Mezzanine why am I only hearing them now? I find its great to play on the beach watching obi run around like a loonies, I can practice to it but I find I am no longer doing tango to it but something else! For the past week I've been practicing the 4-6-8 step and going into cross space to get the follower to do the arches and the kink is getting her to cross leg before going back to the 4-6 step, I think I've sussed it at last. I will practice a lot more tonight at the dance class, so I might go early the class has been a little on the thin side with all this nice weather I am not suprized, although I am not one for standing in line for a partner, I just hope there is a balanced crowed tonight. There is a flash mob on Saturday at the jubilee library in Brighton I like to dance but will turn up and hope for the best and also I will want to take photos as well so I might only do one flash mob and the next one which is in Churchill square I will photograph this one and we off to the bandstand for a Malonga yay. What a result I got a paint of second had leather souled shoes for £6.50 out of the Sussex Beacon the AIDS Charity shop, I'm so over the moon I'm going to try them out at tonight's dance class. That was a bad move, I stepped on the foot of Isabella my foot shot forward like a palaris missile, poor girl jumped up and down a million times, I wish the ground would open up and just swallow me. On a nice note I met up with Kim my best friend in the world who does practice with me poor girl I wore her socks out lol, we or she got me involved in Ballroom now so not only am I now doing Argentine Tango I am also doing Ballroom!
Monday, 27 May 2013
Its been sometime since I last put finger to keyboard, really don’t know why well I do, so much has happened and even though its been busy but not something I wanted to dwell on or even think about, since me and fox decided that a separate path was needed. I have found this increasingly difficult and demanding, to the extent I have shown little or now motivation, and its been a uphill struggle just to keep on smiling and going on. It’s coming up now 6 months since that fateful December morning and the drive to Sussex, I am still lost as to how I survived it, but worse was to come in the fact that I almost starved myself to death, and gave myself Ulcers and during a dance lesson one of the new girls was pulling me around the floor and trying to keep control of her, one of my ulcers burst, and for the next few hours I was internally bleeding Then the most dreadful experience of my life as if the heart was not bad enough, I went to the pee and collapsed in the toilet, it woke the whole house up. Nicola and John called the NHS direct and we got a taxi to the hospital… we waited ages I was kind of scared to go to the toilet by this time, but I had to go, and the same happened again, and thumped my head so hard I lost consciousness for a few moments. I remember shouting for Nicola then it went quite. I spent the next 9 days in hospital and after a quick op I was discharged and it was of all things snowing blowing a blizzard outside, I walked home just happy to be out. I gave up smoking for the last time on December 22nd 2012, I have faltered only once which was a few days ago Monday/Tuesday 20th I hit the roof and walked out of the flat with Obi in tow and walked the streets between the Marina and Shoreham all night I counted the miles 36 miles in all, no sleep only my anger keeping me going, why I went so bonkers was too beyond me to think about, but I found that I stopped taking my Anti depressants a week before and it was not by choice I just did not have them or was not given them, since moving to Brighton I have not been on top of my medication like I was back in Essex. I have been going faithfully to dance classes sometime 2 times a week Thursday and Friday, Carola my tutor lets me come on the Friday to volunteer and dance with the New students which I love. I have found I have made some new friends one in particular Kim she adorable a bit nutty but so easy to get on with and she is so genuine and right up I totally trust her and we meet and have dance practice sessions on the beach once at her little flat, with her mad cat swinging from our legs as we practiced arches. I’m very surprised how I have taken to dance something I never thought I would have done in a month of Sunday’s but here I am even planning on going on one of the Flash Mobs in Brighton which there will be two flash mobs. I keep planning on getting photographs of me in action with one of the other dancers but I never get around to it, I am one for not being in photos which is something I am trying desperately trying to deal with. I keep pushing myself onwards, I don’t say upwards cause going up means there can be a steep fall if it all goes wrong, I can’t allow myself to get too carried away, I am still very sensitive to comments, and criticism, which can in fact cripple me, even an off cuff comment from another dance student actually upset me so much I cut the class short and went home after an hour. I know my own limitations but I never tell others that I might be finding something a little too much, sometimes I am not aware of my blood dropping so low I could almost faint. For the past few weeks I have been asked by Carola to come and help out with the new students on the Friday class at the Rox in Hove a proper dance Studio. I find I look forward to these classes which encourages me to practice even harder and longer, which I do on a daily basis along the beach when me and Obi are out on our morning walk.